Stalled

Entropy- everything disintegrating around me. Notable events of the last week - bought myself a PSP - a sleek, black PSP (I can't work out why anyone would want a white one). Currently playing Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. Mother visited over the weekend - she bought me a new double bed as an early birthday present. And the debts keep accumulating. I am very behind on my IT course - I am stuck. I don't feel as though I can (or even want to) carry on.

Humbled

I saw myself in a mirror at Boots. When I was going to collect the very medication that is causing all this hideous weightgain. Embtittered and angry. Calorie counting the food in Pret a Manger. Up to the counter. The woman serving me was stick thin. A flash of envy. Then she looked up and smiled. She had a harelip. I felt awkward and guilty and all twisted up inside. Especially when she responded to me with kindness and sensitivity.

Rejection

Rejected by my own college or should that be 'ejected'? No PhD there then,

Oh, well, looks as though lt's NYU!!!!!
or Tulane
Or Carnegie Mellon
Or Colmunbia or maybe Pulitzer Shcool of Journalism
Or maybe Colorado.
Or maybe I should lower my sites:

Birkbeck
Goldsmith's
KCL
UCL
Any where in London (I've always wanted to live in London just to convice myself that I could conquer LONDON,)